Sad farewell's

This is my first blog in the page and my first time writing,
the day begins dark and gloomy with rain clouds just starting to give way to the morning light,i wake up in my friends place feeling happy, the night b4 we celebrated my going away in newway till late though i have to trouble him since i cant go back after that(stupid isnt it?).
looking at him make me realised something....i'm going to miss all my friends in malaysia, esp those few that i hold dear to me (mind you the ppl i hold dear does not mean that they do the same too).
i'm going to miss the good old times in malaysia and heading towards an uncertain future together with my hubby,but i am not sure if i have the guts to do so....i am scared...i wish my friends are around me,accompanying me in UK as well but i know its impossible....the words "farewell" seem to get stuck in my mouth when my friend drop me off by the monorail...not sure how he is feeling,actually not really sure how everyone's really feeling after i leave,but according to my senses...might not be much effect lol,everyone nowadays is keeping their feelings to themselves.
i'm here now creating my own blog and hopefully someone will read it since this will be the page i leave my thoughts,although i have my sceptism in writing this b4,i feel like i need to tell someone without troubling them....those who read my blog constantly,i am greatfull :)