MY La Miserable

ITs been such a long time since my last postings...hope no one misses me too much haha
anyway been a terrible life in UK,it seems what they say is true though the grass seems to be greener in the other side..but its not really,when its not ur place its not...kinda hard to find a job after a very very hard start and now thnks to my bf i am able to survive but then again...how long am i able to maintain my current lifestyle?
Wish me good luck in my search for a better life

A "COLD" new start

Its already been 4 days i am in UK and i am beginning to regret the decision of coming here haiz...maybe i am just lonely or bored till i keep on thinking about non-sense alot..i miss my friends and my life back at home...and i dont wanna admit this but i miss the sunlight as well lol...
its freezing everyday,i cant even feel myself anymore...everytime i can only keep only 1 thing in mind,how to keep myself warm...its frustrating..
Met up with some of my friends in Bristol and it seems that they are having a great time partying and such lol but my working place is in the middle of no where...i can only hear myself think everynight...
i'm not sure what i'lll do in the future but in my mind now...all i can think of is GO Back Home!

OMG

Damm the thaksin followers! i still have friends in Thailand and i am worried about their safety...to those who is reading this,spend some time praying for those who are in Thailand,esp if u have friends or family over there...God watch over them

Sad endings

In 24 hours time i will be leaving for UK, i manage to meet up a few of my friends b4 i go and the rest however all i can say is sorry :( well u guys can contact me here or in my face book..just look for me using my e-mail,johnnywyx@hotmail.com.
These few weeks have been heaven and hell for me,saying good bye's is not really my best point,every night i am thinking to myself,will i cope with the life in UK?will i survive without my darling friends?i'm not sure...my darling told me that he wants to marry me and wants to find a way for us to be a PR in UK,but everythings too early to tell now...i dont know what will happen in the future so dont ask me haiz,just let fate takes its course...
and to think that i am leaving in 24 hours time spooked me,I STILL HAVENT PACKED A SINGLE THING YET!!! HELPPPPP

Dark day for me

Woke up feeling stressed up...no thnks to certain ppl who promised he will call but end up MIA till around 12...which is 5am in his place,only to realised that he has been partying with his friends till then karaokeing and ignoring the fact that i'm feeling depressed..hmmm but wierd though,i dont feel like scolding him,even though he only talked for like a minute b4 his phone run out of battery and he says he will call back the next day...but what the heck,i dont care about this anymore.nothing does.
It seems like ages that i havent seen my best friend whom i am meeting for dinner and movies.well another sad ending and another moody night i guess,gonna say good bye to yet another friend :(.
Oh i told the guy i liked about my feelings for him..well looking at the current situation that i am not going to meet him again,just to let him know how i feel...well expected that the following result happen...he avoided me...stupid huh?Although i dont really expected any result will happen but then again i do hope that he give some kind of respond...hmmm.

The base of relationship

Stress

Surrounding me,i feel that everyone is tensed up about their life,stress and anxiety is the main course of unhappyness in one's life but still everyone have to cope with it since they say its inevitable esp those from work,family and relationships.
But why we neglect the fact that this might be a problem to our health?headaches and constant sickness is a sign from ur body that it is week and pls take care of urself...why dont anyone listen anymore?even those buff'ed or fit ones that goes to the gym often...thats only ur body u are taking care of...what about ur mind?
i had a friend whom i fancied for a long time and he has nagging migraine that seem to trouble him alot,i tried to give him a head massage but to no avail..hmmmm.can't help but to feel pity and wish i can do more...but that is his bf's problem not mine lol ( although secretly i wish both of us are single and i can care for him ) haha :P oops sorry dear :P
Well to me...i always tell myself...work smart...not hard....i live life to the max,enjoying every simple pleasures and cherish those who cherish me :)

Definition

Migraine is a type of headache marked by severe head pain lasting several hours or more.

Description

Migraine is an intense, often debilitating type of headache. Migraines affect as many as 24 million people in the United States, and are responsible for billions of dollars in lost work, poor job performance, and direct medical costs. Approximately 18% of women and 6% of men experience at least one migraine attack per year. More than three million women and one million men have one or more severe headaches every month. Migraines often begin in adolescence, and are rare after age 60.

Two types of migraine are recognized. Eighty percent of migraine sufferers experience "migraine without aura," formerly called common migraine. In "migraine with aura," formerly called classic migraine, pain is preceded or accompanied by visual or other sensory disturbances, including hallucinations, partial obstruction of the visual field, numbness or tingling, or a feeling of heaviness. Symptoms are often most prominent on one side of the body, and may begin as early as 72 hours before the onset of pain.

— Kim A. Sharp, MLn

more can be found on annswers.com esp on specifics of migraine,prevention and cure.

Secrets

I dont understand why must ppl create misunderstandings by being silent?yes i know by talking too much u might create more disasters but hey thats life right?
But how about couples?aren;t they suppose to share everything in life?yes u have ur own privacy but whats this rule of "if its not important i fail to see the need for saying it?" is this somewhat a way of saying "i need my own space and secrets so buzz off!" ?well to me its not that we cant keep secrets but i am more than willing to tell every secret i have to my beloved even though it might cause him to be angry, hey if u dont want this then dont do whatever it is in the first place right?
So the question remains....should tell?or not to tell....or just telling what is needed and leave the rest to urself?i guess everyone has their own perspective in this manner and this varies according to everyones personality,but i dont really want secrets...i wanna share it with the one i trust the most,i guess everyone needs to talk about it sooner or later...this is what tention is all about...secrets....conspiracy....pressure....why add to the list right?

Sad farewell's

This is my first blog in the page and my first time writing,
the day begins dark and gloomy with rain clouds just starting to give way to the morning light,i wake up in my friends place feeling happy, the night b4 we celebrated my going away in newway till late though i have to trouble him since i cant go back after that(stupid isnt it?).
looking at him make me realised something....i'm going to miss all my friends in malaysia, esp those few that i hold dear to me (mind you the ppl i hold dear does not mean that they do the same too).
i'm going to miss the good old times in malaysia and heading towards an uncertain future together with my hubby,but i am not sure if i have the guts to do so....i am scared...i wish my friends are around me,accompanying me in UK as well but i know its impossible....the words "farewell" seem to get stuck in my mouth when my friend drop me off by the monorail...not sure how he is feeling,actually not really sure how everyone's really feeling after i leave,but according to my senses...might not be much effect lol,everyone nowadays is keeping their feelings to themselves.
i'm here now creating my own blog and hopefully someone will read it since this will be the page i leave my thoughts,although i have my sceptism in writing this b4,i feel like i need to tell someone without troubling them....those who read my blog constantly,i am greatfull :)